Remembering

Remembering.
A year ago, the world lost an amazing person. Mubina was not just a friend, she was a mother, a daughter, a wife, a healer, a light to everyone she touched.

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Even though it has been a year, I still think about her every day. Some days it’s a happy memory, other days it’s with sadness that she is no longer around for those that love her, need her and were impacted by her shining light. And some days it’s with anger at how unfair it is that she is gone, taken by cancer and unable to live the life she deserved, how unfair it is that her daughter will grow up without her mother and how this world is less bright now that she is gone.

I know that with time, the pain and emptiness will get a little better but it will always be there, a hole.

But I also know the kind of person Mubina was and how she lived her life. She did the things that were important to her, she always made time for family and friends and really lived her life.

When she died, I made a vow to try and do the same, make the most of every day. It is unfortunate that it often takes something like a death to realize what is important.

I made happiness, really high on my list of priorities which include doing things that made me happy like baking with the kids, going to the gym, writing, pursuing a career as a WAHM, meeting up with friends, going for massages.

It also meant making the time to connect with, talk to and meeting up with the people that are important to me like family, old friends and new ones. Sometimes it feels like there is not enough time, and there probably isn’t, but what is important is to Make The Time!

You will never regret, taking your mom out for lunch, meeting an old friend for coffee, picking up the phone to talk to your cousin in another country, making time for a date night or taking some time to read your kids just one more book.

I’m not saying that you have to always be happy and carefree, life is not like that. It has its ups and downs. The last few days have been down for me. I am engulfed with sadness. I don’t like it, but it’s a part of life. But it will get better. I am here and I will live my life the best that I can and I will honor my friend, who I will always miss and who will always be in my heart.

Remembering.

8 thoughts on “Remembering

  1. Such a touching post. More strength to you, and it is difficult losing someone close to you and makes you realize how precious life is. Hugs and to always trying to live life to the fullest.

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