I feel like I’ve been exercising my whole life. I started going to the gym and doing classes when I was 18 and since then, it’s always been a part of my life. I love doing step classes, kickboxing, bootcamp and weight training. It’s a challenge getting though it and then I feel so great afterwords.
One thing I never realized was that I was never proud or fully accepting of my body. Even though I exercised and was really slim, I rarely ever looked in the mirror and thought, “Damn girl, you look good!” Now, 20 years and two children later, I look back at pictures of myself and think, “Wow, you looked good.”
My children are now five and three-years old. I still have an extra 10 pounds on my body and a muffin top stomach. I used to be a size 6-8 and now I’m a size 10-12. It’s frustrating to feel uncomfortable in jeans and to not wear clothes that I like because I feel like my stomach can be seen.
It has been a constant issue with me. I’m not happy with my body and I want to lose those last 10 pounds. I feel like it affects my confidence and even my relationship with my husband. One thing I make sure of, is never to let my children know how I feel. I never want them to worry about calories, weight and body image. I want them to be healthy, active and proud of themselves, even though their mom isn’t; is that possible?
Then recently I heard a talk from Taryn Brumfitt and her body image movement and I feel like something finally got through to me. She stood on stage and took her tummy out of her pants and showed us. She told us that she had been embarrassed of her tummy for so long. I could completely relate to it. Then she said some things that really resonated like, “You are not your tummy,” and “How can I teach my daughter to love her body when her mum can’t,” and lastly and the most profound, “Get some perspective and have some gratitude.”
It’s almost like I could breathe a sigh of relief. Now everything is different. I am slowly accepting that my body is and will be different after having two beautiful children. If I have to go up another size to be comfortable in my clothes, that’s okay. I may or may not lose that last ten pounds and you know what, that’s okay too.
Now when I go to exercise, it’s with the intention to help my mind, body and soul and to challenge myself, not just to burn more calories to help me lose weight.
In January, I joined a local gym, Fitwells For Women. I went to classes a few times a week and I enjoyed it. I loved the feeling of finishing a challenging class with a group of women and feeling accomplished. But now that I can accept my body for what it is, I also want to challenge it because I know it can do more and be stronger.
I’ve made the commitment to workout at Fitwells at least four times a week doing different classes so that my body can attempt new things and not get bored with the same workout. I also signed up to do 10 sessions of their Xlab training sessions which is like a personal training session in a small group setting. I’m not going to lie, I was really scared before my first class. Even though it was challenging and I had to modify some moves because of my knee pain and that I could feel every single muscle the next morning when I tried to get out of bed the next morning, I was proud of myself. I was taking my body and pushing it beyond it’s comfort zone!
The instructors and staff at Fitwells have been really great as I start this new journey of accepting myself on the inside and out. Their message is to support women of all shapes and sizes and to help them get healthy. I’ve saved the best for last. Fitwells is also giving away a three-month membership and one Xlab training session to a lucky reader. So if you’re trying to get healthy, exercise more and be an overall happier person, you need to enter this draw. Just follow the instructions on the Rafflecopter below and get started on your journey. And if you want to started right away, if you head over to Fitwells website, you can get an immediate free 3 day trial.
I know I’m not alone in my journey of acceptance of my body, so if we can support and help each other, it makes it easier to get there.
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*I am part of a blogger outreach program with Fitwells for Women. All opinions in this post, as always, are 100% mine.